mpourdou-mpourdou

is the new talking to the fridge psycho-therapy method... like the pink is the new black, or facebook is your new best friend.

you get the idea.

have been going on for a decade... they have passed from the point that they are more than a habit.. they have become a "commodity".. a something that will most definitely happen. a thing to expect. a thing that you fear that it will happen when you least want it to happen. after you have worked out, during the work time, when you re having coffee, just you have gotten out of bed, if you stay up late, if you smoke, after you 've had too much too drink.. there is no pattern, you just quit the habit. but which one? working? working out? waking up? going to bed? having a social drink or two? I cannot find the connection..

for the past months, it seems that every time i am staying up late, i am just tired the next two days and that's it.. the migraine just pops up out of the blue (? I can never be sure about that even if my tests say so)..

for a long time i have been having fears of not doing stuff in order not to have a migraine.

i just wish this stops. really. for good. i feel like a handicapped person-always willing of doing stuff, but never fit enough for them..
:(